Underneath a Panther's Black Fur
Outside the Norm
Published on February 13, 2005 By Pantherchic In Religion
Everyone, I'm sure, at some point posts an article stating their opinions about religion. This is mine.

I was raised in a relatively strict Christian home. I went to church every Sunday. I went to church activities (other than sunday) at least once a week.I went to camps, meetings, and seasonal outings. I was happy. Things were simple. When I got into high school everything changed.

In high school I was introduced to things that I never knew existed. So many different religions and methods of worship blew my mind. Through out my life I had only really knew there was Christianity and everything else.But I never knew what the "everything else" was. I got to be friends with people of several different belief systems. That was the beginning of the end of what I was taught as a child. Some of the things I was learning didn't make any sense. I did research on them. Some of it felt right and some of it didn't. The more I learned, the less my childhood faith felt right to me. I began having questions that my family or other church members didn't have satisfactory answers to. There were more questions and more doubts.

I wanted to explore and be given the chance to find my own church. This made for many an angry night at home with my parents. I wanted to be able to go to any church I wanted. The reply: "You can go to any church you want, as long as you go to ours too." Go to church twice on Sunday? Not a chance. Going to church for three hours with my family and then at least another hour on my own was not my idea of fun. I was even willing to compromise. I promised to be in church every Sunday if I got to pick the church. No dice. I eventually phased myself out of regular church activity by working and was all but inactive when I moved out of my parents' house just before I turned 19.

Over the years I have come up with my own set of beliefs. Here they are.

*I do consider myself Christian. It may be the way that I was brought up, but I cannot imagine life without God.

*I can accept that I may be wrong. I am truly and honestly okay with the fact that my belief system may be wrong. If I die and find out that Hinduism was the right religion I can accept that and not be upset.

*I do not believe in organized religion. I feel that the relationship that I have with God is between Him and I. Telling me how to worship isn't going to change that.

*To each their own. If you live a good life, and are truly commited to yourself and your beliefs, then you will reach your "heaven" or enlightenment. Whatever you believe in. As long as your religous views don't bother me and mine don't bother you, there should be no problems. You are not going to hell for having different beliefs.

I know that plenty of people will disagree with me. I'm okay with that. I have my beliefs and they have theirs. This is what I go to sleep with at night and this is what I see in the mirror. I can look at myself with no doubts or shame for what I believe. My husband doesn't care that I am Christian. It is what makes me happy. I don't care that he is considering becoming Buddhist. That's his choice. I don't love him or my family any less for having different views. It is what it is. Things may change and then again they may not. At the end of the day some of us will be right and some of us won't. But for all we know we are all wrong and religion and god-like figures were all made up somewhere down the line so people can put a meaning to the chaos of life. As it is now, only the dead know....and they aren't telling.

Comments
on Feb 13, 2005
If you live a good life, and are truly commited to yourself and your beliefs, then you will reach your "heaven" or enlightenment. Whatever you believe in. As long as your religous views don't bother me and mine don't bother you, there should be no problems. You are not going to hell for having different beliefs.


Well said. Most religions admit that "you end up where you belong". I figure that God is smart enough to put us whereever we most deserve and belong. I'm sure that placing Mother Teresa and a vhemenent Southern Baptist in a room for all eternity is not what He has planned. I figure we will all have the perfect knowlege that we are where we should be...and we will be content with that. Of course, hell is probably less fire and brimstone and more "eternal remorse/guilt and kicking yourself in the butt for being a jerk" kinda place.....but once again...only the dead know and they ain't telling.

One caveat though. Organized religious groups serve a wonderful purpose. They allow us to discuss questions/beliefs and gain support and compasion from those who share our point of view. There are many things we can learn from others and church can be a good place for that. So don't rule out organized religion entirely....
on Feb 13, 2005
You know, religion has been a touchy subject for me for a long time. When I started blogging I thought maybe I would get around to exploring how I feel about it, but then Life-happens broadcasted my site to everyone in the family, taking away a good measure of my internet anonymity. I figured I'd have to put the discussion of religion on the back burner because I knew all of my young cousins were reading, and I felt I had a responsibility to them. You've made me realize that while we know eachother, we don't know eachother that well, and we may have more in common than I thought. I guess ultimately my responsibility is to be honest with myself, and with you, so we may yet see my thoughts on religion and family. Not right away, though, I don't know if any of us are ready. Thanks, Chic, for your candor.
on Feb 13, 2005
LH~
I am willing to revise my feelings on organized religion. Organized religion is not for everyone, but it is a great support system for many people. I stand corrected. Thank you.

HW~
Do what you are comfortable with. Also take into consideration that all of us cousins that would read your blogs are old enough to respect your feelings and opinions. We won't love you any differently.
on Feb 13, 2005
pantherchic, as I read your post the first two paragraphs were like Dejevu. All I can tell you is that you are not alone and to be honest we probably are not the only two that have had experienced such. On a personal note I met the Savior when I was 28 years of age... I will soon be 48... my how the time has moved along.

I thoutht about the comment both you and lifehappens made-
(pantherchic) As it is now, only the dead know....and they aren't telling.

Of course, hell is probably less fire and brimstone and more "eternal remorse/guilt and kicking yourself in the butt for being a jerk" kinda place.....but once again...only the dead know and they ain't telling.


There is a story in the Bible that gives us a glimps of life after death. It is the story of a rich man and a man named Lazarus see....Luke 16:19-31. If you believe the Word of God is true- The dead are telling. Check it out.

Thanks for the post and I pray God's blessing in your family and life.

preacherman
on Feb 17, 2005
It's hard to be imperfect in a perfect church, in't it?

That's why the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is true. Because it's perfect. And no human being is perfect.

(Hope you don't mind me commenting once in awhile; I seem to have adopted the HW, L-H, pantherchic, mamie family...until my family gets a #$&! clue how to use the internet. I'd love to have my own extended family to talk to like this. Very cool.)